If I could hold your hand, look into your eyes...
Would you try to understand the things I'm gonna say?
If I could show you how much I feel for you...
Would you turn around and tell me you feel the same way too?
Could be wrong you know, coming out the blue...
I really have to say this
Baby, I love you...
ALTHEA RYZ FAJARDO
"If you're going to sleep then I'll sleep with you."
Those were Donghae's words that made me go crazy. "What?!" was all I could say.
He laughed at my response. "That was scary," he said.
"You are making fun of me huh?" I said, pouting. His facial expression changed to worry.
"Are you angry?" he asked. "I just didn't want you to leave. I'm sorry..."
He really is a child. The Donghae I knew two years ago - innocent, childish and cute - is the one facing me right now. I laughed looking at his expression.
"Fine. I won't take a nap but I have to do something relaxing."
Donghae smiled as if he won a game. "I know! Let's have a massage!"
We went to the day spa at deck 12. We were welcomed by the attendants and we moved to separate rooms. I had a whole body massage which felt like I was in heaven. I have been so tensed since day one of this cruise. The last time I've had this relaxing massage was two months ago. I felt very happy being able to relax again. I slept while being massaged. When I woke up, it was four in the afternoon already.
I overslept! I forgot about Donghae! I thought. I rushed outside the spa and looked around for him. I couldn't find him anywhere. I went around the entire deck and finally saw him sitting on a bench, looking at the ocean. I hesitated to go near him at first but I knew I had to. I went in front of him and did a 90-degree bow.
"I'm so sorry!" I said. He didn't look at me. He is angry. What should I do now? I felt so guilty at what I've done. "I'm sorry for not keeping my promise not to sleep. Please don't get mad at me."
Donghae then stood up and hugged me.
"Please stop doing that," he said while hugging me tight.
"What are you saying?"
"You always leave me, making me worry for you so much!"
"But I didn't leave you! I fell asleep! Didn't you ask the spa attendant if I left?"
He didn't say anything. I guess he didn't ask and thought that I left him. I didn't know what to feel at that moment. He is hugging me. Lee Donghae is hugging me!
He let me go and looked at me with a baby face. I laughed.
"Why are you laughing?" he asked, his face looked serious. I stopped laughing.
"I'm so sorry. What should I do for you to forgive me?" I asked him.
He smirked and I got a little scared. He held my hand and we went to Concierge Club at deck nine. It was a lounge for suite guests so I shouldn't be there but Donghae told the attendant that I was with him so I got in. There were no other guests inside. There were chairs, sofas, tables and entertainment facilities to use.
"Let's stay here," he said. He led me to a couch and let me sit.
"Uhm, what are we going to do here?" I asked nervously.
Perverted thoughts came to my mind. We were alone in the room! As I sat down, he lay on the couch, his head on my lap.
"Since you broke your promise, be my pillow. I'll take a nap," he said and closed his eyes.
I couldn't believe that everything is happening. I know I've loved him since like forever and wanted to meet him personally but I never thought I could get this close to him. I looked at how perfect his face is even without make up on. I love his eyes, his nose, his lips and everything in him. I love how he thinks and acts like a five-year-old kid. I love how he smiles and I love how friendly he is to me. I know he only treats me nicely because I'm his fan. I'm pretty sure he wouldn't love me the way I do. I love him not just as my idol but as a person. I love him so much that I'm starting to be afraid of being so close to him because I know, after this cruise, I wouldn't be able to see him again. I know he will be back to Seoul and we will be million miles away from each other again. I don't even know if he would be able to remember me when he goes back home. I want to tell you all these feelings but I'm afraid to hear your response so I won't.
Donghae was already asleep. He really looks cute while sleeping. This was a good chance for me to see him really upclose without him knowing. I touched his eyebrows then his nose. I also touched his lips slowly, they were so soft. Looking at him sleeping peacefully is the happiest sight for me.
"I love you," I whispered, hoping he wouldn't be able to hear it. He didn't move so I was pretty sure that he was really asleep.
An hour passed by and Donghae was still sleeping. I felt sleepy so I closed my eyes.
When I opened my eyes, the first sight I saw was Donghae's smiling face. Am I in heaven? I suddenly thought. Then I realized I was not dreaming at all and that I fell asleep.
"Hello," Donghae said, flashing his cute smile. I felt embarrassed on falling asleep.
"How long have I slept?" I asked.
"Hmm... an hour?"
"So you've been awake for an hour already?"
He just raised his eyebrows. He remained lying on my lap looking at me. It felt awkward.
"I'm hungry," I said just for him to stop staring at me and stand up. It was effective because he stood up.
"Let's eat!" he exclaimed. He looked so happy. Or maybe he was secretly laughing at my face while I was asleep. I didn't want to think about it so I hurriedly stood up and we went to Portofino at deck 11. It was an Italian specialty restaurant. While eating, I could not look at him in the eye.
"Why are you so silent?" he finally asked.
"Hm? I'm eating," I lied.
"You are not looking straight to my face." I looked at him and denied his accusation. "Are you angry because I didn't wake you?" I stopped eating. "I didn't wake you up because you were sound asleep."
"So you were laughing at me while I was asleep?"
"No way, why would I do that?" he said. "You looked so pretty while asleep." I acted like I didn't hear him and continued eating. I never said a single word again until we finished eating.
It was already nine in the evening. I was so confused on how to react to him. This whole day, he has been flattering me with his words and I don't know if I would believe them or not. I wanted to believe them but I'm scared of falling more deeply. I didn't want to reach the point where I wouldn't want to let him go.
"I need to go back to my cabin. Thanks alot for this day. I really enjoyed it," I said then bowed and walked fast away from him.
I was really hoping that he would not follow me anymore and just let me go. I felt relieved when I was already near my cabin and I couldn't hear any footsteps following me. When I was about to open my cabin's door, I felt someone pulling my hand. I looked to see who it was. It was Donghae.
"What are you do-"
I was interrupted when...
Donghae kissed me.
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